Jen came over tonight, and we watched the Thursday shows. She calls it Mom Night. I love the time we spend together. If only David were here, it would be perfect! I gave Jen her pumpkin. I guess I’ll mail David’s out tomorrow. It’s probably silly to give them each their miniature pumpkin now, but, […]
I saw Susan today. We spoke about some of the things that have been hurting me most of my life. We have to work on getting my feelings to match my intellect. She said my catastrophizing symptoms primarily and some situations is due to irrational thoughts. She said I should write down what I was […]
On TV, Almanzo Wilder just said, “I don’t want to waste a day.” How many days have I wasted? Kathleen A. Gagne
In which mom sends me some essays
The Gators lost to Auburn today, effectively taking them out of the running for the national championship. It was an awful game, as if another team showed up … Jen was really upset. I assume David was, too, because I couldn’t reach him after the game. I guess I’ll call him early tomorrow. I worry […]
I tried it today. I sat and thought about myself as a child. The scenes that came easily were the times I felt along (in a closet hiding with the money, in my bed on Lakeside, writing at my rolltop desk, in my big room at Nana’s). And I tried to reach out to that […]
It’s been weird lately — and scary. There has been anthrax in Florida and New York — one at a sleazy newspaper office and 1 at 30 Rock — the NBC studio. I had “bad” dreams about David last night and didn’t get much sleep and, when I called David today, he sounded all stuffed. […]
On the way home from Daytona last week, I thought about making a list of the most important things I want to do this year. As usual, I forgot to do it, so, a week later, here’s a start — I want a man in my life I want to lose some weight I want […]
I had my first interview yesterday with a small company called BCN, Associates. I’m still not exactly sure what the job entails (neither are they), and I was really nervous about it, but I think it went very well. Apparently, they found my resume very impressive, and I’m pretty sure they really liked me. Weird. […]
I got a call early this morning for an interview with BCN Associates. It sounded really good when I sent my resume in, but now I’m really nervous about it. I haven’t got a clue whether I’m remotely qualified for it either. I got my hair cut and drove by the building. It’s the Seagle […]