So David’s in Maui, about 5500 miles away. He was hoping to see the UF/Georgia game, but it would have to be on at 9:30 AM.

Jen and I went to see Star Wars on the Gainesville Plaza last night. It was pretty cold and, for the first time, the movie looked rather primitive to me. We took Little One. I think she’s almost totally blind now, but she seemed excited to be there.

I got a letter from Naylor Pub — I guess my, “I really don’t want to do sales” attitude got through to the recruiter. I wonder if I made a mistake — some of their inside sales people make six figures a year.

On the other hand, I got a call from a non-profit org. I applied to. The job is in Putnam county and probably pays crap, but at least it’s an interview. I also emailed Barbara Searle about a position I saw on with CH2MHill, and she said she voice-mailed the HR director about details.

I have $900 in cash and about $1000 in credit left (I don’t want to use the credit!), and $494 coming from unemployment every two weeks. I guess I should be really panicked — I should be working harder to get a job.

I want to write a book. It’s another one of those things that I feel I need to do now. Like losing weight — and having a man, or men, in my life.

What keeps holding me back? Is it all tied into my lack of self esteem? Susan says I need to get my feelings in line with my intellect. I need to stop worrying about the years I see as wasted (in my personal growth) and concentrate on now.
Kathleen A. Gagne