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December 28th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

12/28/07 Hi, Mom, Got through Christmas, sort-of! Jen came and went. She stayed a week. We went to a movie, and I guess we had quality time together. But she always leaves. It hurts so much! I hardly ever see my kids, and I’m almost always alone. Dic & Ann believe I’m going to hell […]

Just Angry
December 18th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

12/18/07 Hi, Mom, Christmas is almost here, and I’m dreading it. I still can’t believe you’re gone. I’m angry at myself for not coming to you that night. I’m angry with my life in general. How did I end up like this? I’m so alone. I don’t want to go to Dic’s. I’m not in […]

Now he might not.
December 11th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

12/11/07 Hi, Mom, Work sucks! Once again, I’m not good enough. I was mean to Jen tonight. She won’t come to live any closer. You had a loving family around you when you died. I’ll probably die alone. I don’t have any fun, hardly ever. David said he was coming for Christmas. Now he might […]

Forgetting A Lot
December 9th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

12/9/07 Hi, Mom, I went to Tampa with Donna today. Of all things, we went to see the Rockettes. They were good, and it was fun. Last night I felt really weird. Like I couldn’t think. Like I was forgetting a lot. — A lot. I’m under a lot of stress. I guess I always […]

December 8th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

12/8/07 Hi, Mom, It’s been a while. I’ve had a rough few weeks, and, you know me, that means eating too much and all the wrong things. I can hardly breathe when the heat comes on, and I’m a mess. I guess I’m going to Dic’s today. It’s for Ann’s Birthday. I’m getting her a […]

Every Night at 7
November 30th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

11/30/07 Hi, Mom, Christmas is coming. I wish I could go out and buy you a gift. Maybe I’ll make a donation in your name. I don’t know yet if David and [redacted] are coming. Jen will be here the Thursday before Christmas and will leave the day after. I’m thinking about getting a bigger […]

We Were All Screwed Up
November 29th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Dear Mom, I hurt all over. It’s winter, and I’m having trouble breathing. I’ve been feeling bad since I got home from Maui. I wonder if you were watching. It was strange, but David is really happy. I really need to lose weight! Any tips? Not funny. Sometimes I get mad at you and Daddy […]

A Wreck
November 28th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

11/28/07 — a month after your b-day Hi, Mom, I’m a wreck. I’m wanting to always lose weight, but I’m under so much pressure at work, and even at home, with bills and all. I just keep eating all the time. I had lost 10 lbs., but I’ve gained some back. I wish there was […]

November 22nd, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Hi, Mom, It was Thanksgiving today, the first one without you. Nic sat where you usually sat in your wheelchair. Dic cried. I miss you so much! You can’t imagine what I would give for one of your smiles or a great, big hug. Just before you died, I bought Uno. I thought you and […]

November 12th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Dear Mom, It dawned on me over the weekend that I never asked you what your dreams were. Maybe you didn’t have any beyond marriage and children, but I suspect that’s not the whole story. I’m sorry if some of your dreams didn’t come true. I know you loved to travel, and you did that. […]