“Letters to Mom”

One of her journals I found is titled “Letters to Mom”. It’s a collection of letters she wrote to her mother — my “Nana Anna” — starting about four months after her death.

Hi, Mom,

It was Thanksgiving today, the first one without you. Nic sat where you usually sat in your wheelchair.

Dic cried.

I miss you so much! You can’t imagine what I would give for one of your smiles or a great, big hug.

Just before you died, I bought Uno. I thought you and Jen and I could play when you get better.

I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you left. I really wanted to be there, and it broke my heart that Jen and I were ten minutes late.

You’ve left a huge hole in my heart, and, if there is a heaven, I hope you’re enjoying it. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate all you did for me and David and Jen.

I love you. I miss you. I honor you.

Kathleen A. Gagne