“Letters to Mom”

One of her journals I found is titled “Letters to Mom”. It’s a collection of letters she wrote to her mother — my “Nana Anna” — starting about four months after her death.

Hi, Mom,

Work sucks! Once again, I’m not good enough.

I was mean to Jen tonight. She won’t come to live any closer. You had a loving family around you when you died. I’ll probably die alone.

I don’t have any fun, hardly ever. David said he was coming for Christmas. Now he might not.

I can’t lose weight. My bones ache, and I feel as if I’m a hundred years old.

Donna’s a good friend. Kim could be, too.

I don’t know where to go or what to do. I have no one to talk to most of the time. I cry when I’m driving.

What’s wrong with me?

Kathleen A. Gagne