1/8/07
The Gators won the National Championship. It was beyond cool.
It made me think of losing. Funny, but I always seem to be losing, everything except weight, and that is a loss, too. I’m almost always alone. I have no friends nearby, and I don’t know how to get them.
I feel drained. I feel tired. I feel lost.
I want to move forward. Jen and David want me to find God, but I don’t know how. I don’t know if I can believe.
Even when I was a child, I was always alone. Jen & David are my joy but they’re so far away.