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Every Night at 7
November 30th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

11/30/07 Hi, Mom, Christmas is coming. I wish I could go out and buy you a gift. Maybe I’ll make a donation in your name. I don’t know yet if David and [redacted] are coming. Jen will be here the Thursday before Christmas and will leave the day after. I’m thinking about getting a bigger […]

We Were All Screwed Up
November 29th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Dear Mom, I hurt all over. It’s winter, and I’m having trouble breathing. I’ve been feeling bad since I got home from Maui. I wonder if you were watching. It was strange, but David is really happy. I really need to lose weight! Any tips? Not funny. Sometimes I get mad at you and Daddy […]

A Wreck
November 28th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

11/28/07 — a month after your b-day Hi, Mom, I’m a wreck. I’m wanting to always lose weight, but I’m under so much pressure at work, and even at home, with bills and all. I just keep eating all the time. I had lost 10 lbs., but I’ve gained some back. I wish there was […]

November 22nd, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Hi, Mom, It was Thanksgiving today, the first one without you. Nic sat where you usually sat in your wheelchair. Dic cried. I miss you so much! You can’t imagine what I would give for one of your smiles or a great, big hug. Just before you died, I bought Uno. I thought you and […]

November 12th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Dear Mom, It dawned on me over the weekend that I never asked you what your dreams were. Maybe you didn’t have any beyond marriage and children, but I suspect that’s not the whole story. I’m sorry if some of your dreams didn’t come true. I know you loved to travel, and you did that. […]

November 11th, 2007 @ 1:26 pm

Several months after she died, I found a file on mom’s computer named November 11.doc and dated December 4, 2007. It’s a letter she wrote to a magazine subscription department, but — unfortunately — I can’t tell which magazine it was. It’s so strange to read this and wonder what she was thinking and why […]

November 8, 2007
November 8th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Mom, Your voice is back. God, I miss you! Love, Kathie Kathleen A. Gagne

November 8th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Dear Mom, Sometimes you drove me crazy. I felt as if I was an alien in the family. I was always dreaming. I still dream. I still hope. I was thinking about some of the things you and Daddy did that really hurt me. You gave away my dog, my Blackie, and you let me […]

Your Voice
November 7th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Mom, We lost your voice today. T-Mobile had a glitch and your, “Hi. This is Anne. Speak your peace,” went away. I feel really bad for Dic. He’s been calling you every day, and I don’t think there’s a way to get it back. I wish we had taken more video of you, and certainly […]

As Long As You Did
November 4th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Hi, Mom, The Patriots just beat the Colts. Stressful game! Donna and I went to see a funny romance movie called “Dan in Real Life”. It was pretty good. I’ve been really tired lately, probably because I’m not eating right. I think what I need to do is start eating right just because I want […]