“Letters to Mom”

One of her journals I found is titled “Letters to Mom”. It’s a collection of letters she wrote to her mother — my “Nana Anna” — starting about four months after her death.


Dear Mom,

I’m in a mess again. I’m losing my best job on July 31, and I have no idea what to do. I’m depressed. I’m lonely. I’m scared.

I wish I had family around me. I don’t know what to do.

Maybe I can teach, but I don’t think it will save my house.

Once again, Daddy’s words come to haunt me.

I’ll have to really cut back and find a part-time job as well.

Who cares about me, Mom?

Who cares about how I feel?

Who cares about what happens to me.

I am so alone, so lost, so scared.

I just wish I had someone to love me.

Kathleen A. Gagne