“Letters to Mom”
One of her journals I found is titled “Letters to Mom”. It’s a collection of letters she wrote to her mother — my “Nana Anna” — starting about four months after her death.
I’m in a mess again. I’m losing my best job on July 31, and I have no idea what to do. I’m depressed. I’m lonely. I’m scared.
I wish I had family around me. I don’t know what to do.
Maybe I can teach, but I don’t think it will save my house.
Once again, Daddy’s words come to haunt me.
I’ll have to really cut back and find a part-time job as well.
Who cares about me, Mom?
Who cares about how I feel?
Who cares about what happens to me.
I am so alone, so lost, so scared.
I just wish I had someone to love me.
Kathleen A. Gagne