Hi, Mom,
I babysat for Janet and Eric Peburn’s kids last night. They were wonderful! How could they not be? The whole Peburn family is perfect.
It made me sad to think that I’m 59, and I don’t have any grandchildren.
It’s hard if your kids are thousands of miles away.
I’m lucky if I see David once a year. Jen comes more often, but I still hate that she lives in Chicago! The other night, she called me at 4:00 a.m. while she was biking home.
I worry so much about both of them and about me living alone.
I’m so lonely, all the time. Cats and dogs are great, but it doesn’t make up for having someone to talk to, someone who cares enough to live with you.
I’ve been eating all the wrong things since Maui. I’m afraid to get on the scale. I’m thinking about joining Curves again.
I really, really need to lose weight and keep it off. Usually, I blame you and Dad for that.
I love you,
Kathie.
Kathleen A. Gagne
Kathie Gagne died 4,638 days ago.
Mom,
This is crazy! I don’t want to get rich because you died in pain at the hands of idiots.
I’d rather win the lottery and take you on a trip around the world.
I can’t believe I went to Maui. The sad part was the pall hanging over it. I really want [redacted], but I don’t know if that will ever happen.
And David spends so much money. Did I tell you his boss died? It was quite a blow for David, both personally and professionally. He keeps coming close to wealth and then it gets snatched away.
I wish I could really talk to you.
I love you,
Kathie
Kathleen A. Gagne
Hi, Mom.
I really hope you’re listening somewhere.
Dic seems to think we’re going to split a million dollars. You know Dic.
We still haven’t taken your ashes to the beach, but you would know that. I’m not sure what we’re going to do for Christmas. Maybe then.
I’m pretty sure David and [redacted] will be in Florida for the holidays.
I’m planning to plan a weight-loss plan of my own.
I think it might include a lot of dancing.
Wherever you are, my heart is with you.
I love you and I miss you
very, very much.
Kathie
Kathleen A. Gagne
Hi, Mom.
I drove to Daytona today for your birthday. Dic and I each drank a shot of Amaretto in your honor.
Life is so different without you here. I truly miss your hugs, and, most of all, your smile.
By the way, the Red Sox were the best team in baseball all year, and tonight they won the World Series. If there is a heaven for sports fans, I hope you and daddy are celebrating.
I keep feeling as if I have lost my anchor. Maybe that happens to everyone when their Mom dies, but I don’t know.
I’m trying to get my life back on some kind of track. There has been so much going on all year, and I’m exhausted and stressed all the time. I’m really grateful that Donna and I have been going out on weekends.
I love you, Mom. I wish you were here for 87, but I’m so grateful that you were here for 58 yrs.
I love you, Mom,
Kathie
Kathleen A. Gagne
Hi, Mom,
I’m really missing you tonight. I’m in the Holiday Inn we stayed in when you came to my graduation.
I’m here for a stupid conference. I hate them. I have to kennel Mocha and leave the cats, and I never get anything out of them.
I was talking to a bank teller today. She lost her mom. I was telling her about how you used to take a pad with you to dinner so you could tell me what you ate.
I loved your laugh! I wish I could hear it again a thousand times! I love you, Mom.
I miss you,
Kathie
Kathleen A. Gagne
Hi, again, Mom.
Things are strange. I may get a lot of money because you died. it doesn’t seem right. I really miss your hugs, and I feel lost and more alone than ever.
I went to Cedar Key today with my friend, Donna. It was okay, but it was drizzling some of the time, and all I bought were a couple of books.
I feel overwhelmed a lot. My life, my job, David getting married are all very stressful issues right now.
The Red Sox are coming on soon. Maybe I’ll hear from the kids.
I’m trying to talk Dic into going to Disney for Christmas instead of pandering to all the people who come to mooch off them. I don’t think he’ll do it.
I love you, Mom! I miss you,
Kathie
Kathleen A. Gagne
Mom,
I don’t know what to do about your cell phone. I wish we had more samples of your voice or more videos.
Seven o’clock every night is still hard. And your birthday is coming up.
I went to Maui for David’s wedding. Jen and I shared a condo and spent a lot of time together.
We actually drove to the top of a volcano. Mt. Haleakalah. It was really a wonder and very beautiful, more like a vista from the moon or another planet. Jen and I were both sick, but it was great.
[redacted]
All in all, Maui was okay. Not quite as pretty as Florida. I spent over $3000, and I’m very worried about [redacted]. I hope I’m wrong. I love you! I miss you.
Kathie
Kathleen A. Gagne
A few days after my wedding in Maui, my sister and my mother climbed Haleakala. Here she is near the top, sticking out her tongue at my sister.
In Hawaii for My Wedding
This photo was taken just before the wedding ceremony.