1/6/08 Hi, Mom, I’ve been home most of the week because I tore some muscles in my back when I fell. I’m so alone. I keep wondering why. I’m huge. I think I weigh out at the highest ever. I guess I’ll go to Weight Watchers and try again. I’ll be 60 this year, which […]
1/1/08 Hi, Mom, Happy New Year! I hope this year is better than last year. I miss you so much. I fell yesterday and hurt my right shoulder. I’m in a lot of pain. I was just wondering if you can somehow help me lose weight. That is, if you’re there. I wish you were […]
12/28/07 Hi, Mom, Got through Christmas, sort-of! Jen came and went. She stayed a week. We went to a movie, and I guess we had quality time together. But she always leaves. It hurts so much! I hardly ever see my kids, and I’m almost always alone. Dic & Ann believe I’m going to hell […]
12/18/07 Hi, Mom, Christmas is almost here, and I’m dreading it. I still can’t believe you’re gone. I’m angry at myself for not coming to you that night. I’m angry with my life in general. How did I end up like this? I’m so alone. I don’t want to go to Dic’s. I’m not in […]
12/11/07 Hi, Mom, Work sucks! Once again, I’m not good enough. I was mean to Jen tonight. She won’t come to live any closer. You had a loving family around you when you died. I’ll probably die alone. I don’t have any fun, hardly ever. David said he was coming for Christmas. Now he might […]
12/9/07 Hi, Mom, I went to Tampa with Donna today. Of all things, we went to see the Rockettes. They were good, and it was fun. Last night I felt really weird. Like I couldn’t think. Like I was forgetting a lot. — A lot. I’m under a lot of stress. I guess I always […]
12/8/07 Hi, Mom, It’s been a while. I’ve had a rough few weeks, and, you know me, that means eating too much and all the wrong things. I can hardly breathe when the heat comes on, and I’m a mess. I guess I’m going to Dic’s today. It’s for Ann’s Birthday. I’m getting her a […]
11/30/07 Hi, Mom, Christmas is coming. I wish I could go out and buy you a gift. Maybe I’ll make a donation in your name. I don’t know yet if David and [redacted] are coming. Jen will be here the Thursday before Christmas and will leave the day after. I’m thinking about getting a bigger […]
Dear Mom, I hurt all over. It’s winter, and I’m having trouble breathing. I’ve been feeling bad since I got home from Maui. I wonder if you were watching. It was strange, but David is really happy. I really need to lose weight! Any tips? Not funny. Sometimes I get mad at you and Daddy […]
11/28/07 — a month after your b-day Hi, Mom, I’m a wreck. I’m wanting to always lose weight, but I’m under so much pressure at work, and even at home, with bills and all. I just keep eating all the time. I had lost 10 lbs., but I’ve gained some back. I wish there was […]