On TV, Almanzo Wilder just said, “I don’t want to waste a day.” How many days have I wasted? Kathleen A. Gagne
On TV, Almanzo Wilder just said, “I don’t want to waste a day.” How many days have I wasted? Kathleen A. Gagne
The Gators lost to Auburn today, effectively taking them out of the running for the national championship. It was an awful game, as if another team showed up … Jen was really upset. I assume David was, too, because I couldn’t reach him after the game. I guess I’ll call him early tomorrow. I worry […]
I tried it today. I sat and thought about myself as a child. The scenes that came easily were the times I felt along (in a closet hiding with the money, in my bed on Lakeside, writing at my rolltop desk, in my big room at Nana’s). And I tried to reach out to that […]
It’s been weird lately — and scary. There has been anthrax in Florida and New York — one at a sleazy newspaper office and 1 at 30 Rock — the NBC studio. I had “bad” dreams about David last night and didn’t get much sleep and, when I called David today, he sounded all stuffed. […]
On the way home from Daytona last week, I thought about making a list of the most important things I want to do this year. As usual, I forgot to do it, so, a week later, here’s a start — I want a man in my life I want to lose some weight I want […]
I had my first interview yesterday with a small company called BCN, Associates. I’m still not exactly sure what the job entails (neither are they), and I was really nervous about it, but I think it went very well. Apparently, they found my resume very impressive, and I’m pretty sure they really liked me. Weird. […]
I got a call early this morning for an interview with BCN Associates. It sounded really good when I sent my resume in, but now I’m really nervous about it. I haven’t got a clue whether I’m remotely qualified for it either. I got my hair cut and drove by the building. It’s the Seagle […]
Went for the biopsy today. It wasn’t bad but it was a lot more complicated and real than I had expected. Got some good stuff from Susan. I was wondering — why have I always had so much trouble figuring out what I want to do or what would make me happy? What is that […]
Went to Daytona with Jen. It’s really great to have the time with her and to see Nic & Amber, but Mom can get so nasty sometimes. It’s as if all she ever wants to do is tell me all the bad things in her life. And she seems mad. I guess it could be […]
I need to talk to Susan about catastrophizing. I know that my feelings are being colored by hours & hours of watching the WTC news and concern for the future. I know I’m certainly only one of millions. I can hear it in David’s voice — what I wouldn’t give to see his face, his […]