It’s been weird lately — and scary. There has been anthrax in Florida and New York — one at a sleazy newspaper office and 1 at 30 Rock — the NBC studio. I had “bad” dreams about David last night and didn’t get much sleep and, when I called David today, he sounded all stuffed. […]
On the way home from Daytona last week, I thought about making a list of the most important things I want to do this year. As usual, I forgot to do it, so, a week later, here’s a start — I want a man in my life I want to lose some weight I want […]
I had my first interview yesterday with a small company called BCN, Associates. I’m still not exactly sure what the job entails (neither are they), and I was really nervous about it, but I think it went very well. Apparently, they found my resume very impressive, and I’m pretty sure they really liked me. Weird. […]
I got a call early this morning for an interview with BCN Associates. It sounded really good when I sent my resume in, but now I’m really nervous about it. I haven’t got a clue whether I’m remotely qualified for it either. I got my hair cut and drove by the building. It’s the Seagle […]
Jen and I went to Daytona for my birthday last Saturday. We stayed overnight at a Days Inn and got up and went for a walk on the beach. It was great and funny. Two women came up to us and offered us $50 if we listened to a time share presentation. We went, and […]
Ghandi said, “In the midst of darkness, light persists.” Kathleen A. Gagne Mom wrote this journal entry the day before her 53rd birthday. As far as I can tell, it’s all she wrote that day.
Went for the biopsy today. It wasn’t bad but it was a lot more complicated and real than I had expected. Got some good stuff from Susan. I was wondering — why have I always had so much trouble figuring out what I want to do or what would make me happy? What is that […]
Went to Daytona with Jen. It’s really great to have the time with her and to see Nic & Amber, but Mom can get so nasty sometimes. It’s as if all she ever wants to do is tell me all the bad things in her life. And she seems mad. I guess it could be […]
I need to talk to Susan about catastrophizing. I know that my feelings are being colored by hours & hours of watching the WTC news and concern for the future. I know I’m certainly only one of millions. I can hear it in David’s voice — what I wouldn’t give to see his face, his […]
Another day of watching the horror in New York City. And now they are talking to victims and victim’s families. People are crying, and there is anger and fear and confusion. How sad that only a few people (less than 20 it seems) could destroy so much. Three or four more buildings collapsed. The fire […]