“Letters to Mom”
One of her journals I found is titled “Letters to Mom”. It’s a collection of letters she wrote to her mother — my “Nana Anna” — starting about four months after her death.
Happy New Year Again, Mom!
I really, really miss you. My ribs are hurting!
I took down your little tree today. At least I hope it was your tree. It was in the closet at Indigo. It looked nice. I had it on the table you bought me on Horseman.
I was such a bitch about it. I honestly don’t know why. It’s a great table! I hate it that I was so mean to you on Horseman. I hope you have forgiven me.
I was putting away ornaments, and I found some of those NOEL door-knob hangers and I started to cry again.
There is a huge, gaping hole in my heart!
I miss you so much, Mom. I hope you know that.
I love you always,
Kathleen A. Gagne