“Letters to Mom”

One of her journals I found is titled “Letters to Mom”. It’s a collection of letters she wrote to her mother — my “Nana Anna” — starting about four months after her death.


Hi, Mom,

I’m a mess! I feel as if I’ve always been alone and always will be. I don’t know that I’ve ever truly connected with anyone, except maybe David and Jen when they were little. I always feel inferior. I get so angry. I just want to believe I have value to someone.

I’m not sure that will ever happen. I don’t know that I can touch anyone’s soul or have someone touch mine.

I’m going to be 60 this year. Can I begin to live now?

I love you, Mom. I just wish you hadn’t fed us junk food so much.

Kathleen A. Gagne