2/19/08 Hi, Mom, I’m in the fourth day of a four day weekend. I should be having fun, but I have almost no friends. I never know how to make friends. I felt really sick yesterday, and had no-one to call. I worry about my weight. I need to lose 100 lbs! I worry about […]
2/12/08 Hi, Mom, I’m a mess! I feel as if I’ve always been alone and always will be. I don’t know that I’ve ever truly connected with anyone, except maybe David and Jen when they were little. I always feel inferior. I get so angry. I just want to believe I have value to someone. […]
1/30/08 Hi, Mom, I miss you sooo much! I’m trying to lose weight again. I got all the way up to 274.5 over the holidays, what with the broken ribs and all. I think I may have lost about 6.5 pounds in a week. I hope it keeps up at that rate. I’m going to […]
1/27/08 Hi, Mom, Did I tell you I went shopping for wedding dresses again? Donna’s brother is getting married for the third time on 2/16. Today Donna and I went to a movie called 27 Dresses. It was a cute, funny love story. I’m so alone, and, right now, unbelievably broke. I’ll get paid on […]
1/25/08 Hi, Mom, It’s Friday night. I’m planning to watch Australian Tennis. I feel as if you’re going further and further away. I wish I could really talk to you, as if you would be able to answer. I guess that you can get used to being along. But it’s never fun. I started to […]
1/22/08 Hi, Mom, I’ve been eating tons of chocolate. I started eating right today, and I already feel better. Look, if you’re up there, please keep an eye on David & Jenny. I’m so far away. I miss them and you all the time. I want to hear your voice. I want to ask you […]
1/14/07 Hi, Mom, I hate to keep saying it, but I’m so alone. I have no one I can count on except myself. How the hell did this happen to me? Did I drive my kids away? I’ve decided that I’m the only one who can change my life, but I don’t know where to […]
1/12/08 Happy New Year Again, Mom! I really, really miss you. My ribs are hurting! I took down your little tree today. At least I hope it was your tree. It was in the closet at Indigo. It looked nice. I had it on the table you bought me on Horseman. I was such a […]
1/11/08 Hi, Mom, Dic called me today. It’s been happening a lot. I was feeling pretty bad with my broken ribs and all, but Dic said they were thinking of coming up tomorrow — until they realized that Amber has basketball practice tomorrow and a game on Sunday. I actually thought they might come, and, […]
1/8/08 Hi, Mom, Guess what. I don’t have just a muscle pull. I have that, but I also have three broken ribs. It seems so weird. Hurts like hell. I’m tired and lonely, and I wish I could talk to you. I really, truly need to lose weight. You know I’ll be 60 this year. […]