I found dozens of journals after mom died. So, so many of them only contain a handful of entries, but some of them cover entire years of her life.
These blog posts are entries from them.
I have an interview today in Palatka — for a job as Putnam County Facilitator. It’s too far to travel every day. I don’t feel good about my chances. No one has offered me a job yet. I don’t feel like a failure about it — it’s just that the skills required are not in […]
So David’s in Maui, about 5500 miles away. He was hoping to see the UF/Georgia game, but it would have to be on at 9:30 AM. Jen and I went to see Star Wars on the Gainesville Plaza last night. It was pretty cold and, for the first time, the movie looked rather primitive to […]
Jen came over for Mom night and we watched the Thursday shows. She made Cantina Chili (from Star Wars — vegan). It was great. David is flying to Maui tomorrow with [redacted] & her dad. I hope he has a great time. Jen and I wish he was here. We both had pictures of Sunday […]
Jen had a movie date with Andrew Saturday as planned. While I was sort of waiting for her to call, David called instead. He never calls during the day, so it was a nice surprise. We made small talk for a while and talked about football a little. Then he asked if I had any […]
I went to meet Jen at Cafe Doye tonight. She was picking a movie with a young man named Andrew. He’s really adorable, a poet, she says, and he’s been in there a few times. They’re going to the movie tomorrow afternoon. I’m happy for her. I hope she has a great time. I’m very […]
Jen came over tonight, and we watched the Thursday shows. She calls it Mom Night. I love the time we spend together. If only David were here, it would be perfect! I gave Jen her pumpkin. I guess I’ll mail David’s out tomorrow. It’s probably silly to give them each their miniature pumpkin now, but, […]
I saw Susan today. We spoke about some of the things that have been hurting me most of my life. We have to work on getting my feelings to match my intellect. She said my catastrophizing symptoms primarily and some situations is due to irrational thoughts. She said I should write down what I was […]
On TV, Almanzo Wilder just said, “I don’t want to waste a day.” How many days have I wasted? Kathleen A. Gagne
The Gators lost to Auburn today, effectively taking them out of the running for the national championship. It was an awful game, as if another team showed up … Jen was really upset. I assume David was, too, because I couldn’t reach him after the game. I guess I’ll call him early tomorrow. I worry […]
I tried it today. I sat and thought about myself as a child. The scenes that came easily were the times I felt along (in a closet hiding with the money, in my bed on Lakeside, writing at my rolltop desk, in my big room at Nana’s). And I tried to reach out to that […]