I found dozens of journals after mom died. So, so many of them only contain a handful of entries, but some of them cover entire years of her life.
These blog posts are entries from them.

Robbed
January 30th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/30/08 Hi, Mom, I miss you sooo much! I’m trying to lose weight again. I got all the way up to 274.5 over the holidays, what with the broken ribs and all. I think I may have lost about 6.5 pounds in a week. I hope it keeps up at that rate. I’m going to […]

A Great TV
January 27th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/27/08 Hi, Mom, Did I tell you I went shopping for wedding dresses again? Donna’s brother is getting married for the third time on 2/16. Today Donna and I went to a movie called 27 Dresses. It was a cute, funny love story. I’m so alone, and, right now, unbelievably broke. I’ll get paid on […]

Further and Further Away
January 25th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/25/08 Hi, Mom, It’s Friday night. I’m planning to watch Australian Tennis. I feel as if you’re going further and further away. I wish I could really talk to you, as if you would be able to answer. I guess that you can get used to being along. But it’s never fun. I started to […]

Australia
January 22nd, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/22/08 Hi, Mom, I’ve been eating tons of chocolate. I started eating right today, and I already feel better. Look, if you’re up there, please keep an eye on David & Jenny. I’m so far away. I miss them and you all the time. I want to hear your voice. I want to ask you […]

Cold Inside
January 14th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/14/07 Hi, Mom, I hate to keep saying it, but I’m so alone. I have no one I can count on except myself. How the hell did this happen to me? Did I drive my kids away? I’ve decided that I’m the only one who can change my life, but I don’t know where to […]

A Great Table
January 12th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/12/08 Happy New Year Again, Mom! I really, really miss you. My ribs are hurting! I took down your little tree today. At least I hope it was your tree. It was in the closet at Indigo. It looked nice. I had it on the table you bought me on Horseman. I was such a […]

Disappointed
January 11th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/11/08 Hi, Mom, Dic called me today. It’s been happening a lot. I was feeling pretty bad with my broken ribs and all, but Dic said they were thinking of coming up tomorrow — until they realized that Amber has basketball practice tomorrow and a game on Sunday. I actually thought they might come, and, […]

Ready to Get Started
January 8th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/8/08 Hi, Mom, Guess what. I don’t have just a muscle pull. I have that, but I also have three broken ribs. It seems so weird. Hurts like hell. I’m tired and lonely, and I wish I could talk to you. I really, truly need to lose weight. You know I’ll be 60 this year. […]

Try Again
January 6th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/6/08 Hi, Mom, I’ve been home most of the week because I tore some muscles in my back when I fell. I’m so alone. I keep wondering why. I’m huge. I think I weigh out at the highest ever. I guess I’ll go to Weight Watchers and try again. I’ll be 60 this year, which […]

New Year
January 1st, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/1/08 Hi, Mom, Happy New Year! I hope this year is better than last year. I miss you so much. I fell yesterday and hurt my right shoulder. I’m in a lot of pain. I was just wondering if you can somehow help me lose weight. That is, if you’re there. I wish you were […]