I found dozens of journals after mom died. So, so many of them only contain a handful of entries, but some of them cover entire years of her life.
These blog posts are entries from them.
Jen’s pretty definitely moving in sometime in May. She says we’re in a good place so we can get along. But she also says she’s probably going to move to Chicago before the end of the year. And tomorrow’s Easter. A year since we’ve seen David for more than 24 hours. What the hell am […]
Jen is back from Chicago. She got in Tuesday night, and today she’s coming over for Mom Night. At the end of May, she’s going on the Appalachian Trail for a week again. David is definitely not coming for Easter. I hope he’ll be in Florida for a few days when Ryan gets married, and […]
Susan and I spoke at length about my fears about health. I think I told her more about what it does to me than I’ve ever told anyone. She said it comes from me not having anyone understand me or comfort me when I was a child. I told her I felt as if there […]
I’ve finished two full weeks of work. It’s okay, but I’m still working with a team. Donna is great. She seems to be an incredibly nice woman. She’s already looking for ways to get me a Masters degree. I think my money problems are going to be with me for a while. I either need […]
Jen came Wednesday after work to give Fingerpup a bath, but she wasn’t feeling well, so it didn’t get done that day. Her house was cold — she brought a suitcase and planned to stay until Friday morning. But, by Friday, she was still pretty sick. She didn’t even go to work today. She slept […]
Daddy died 16 years ago today. I think maybe I never really knew him. Jen came over tonight. She’s staying here because it’s going in the 20s, and she’s staying tomorrow night, too. I think my job is going to be ok. Gotta figure out the money. Maybe I can try some freelance writing. David […]
Second day at the School Board — better than orientation day. Donna took me to lunch at Sweetwater across the street. She’s very nice and very smart and she cares deeply about the work she does. I have a lot to learn — again. And I have to figure out how to make more money! […]
Tomorrow I start my new job — here goes. Today I had breakfast with Anita, Lunch with Jen and Alicia at Ballyhoo, and went to see Lord of the Rings for the third time with them. It was fun. I also increased the dose of my BP med per Dr. Wang. I need to have […]
I got a job today — with the Alachua County School Board and Americorps. At less than 2/3 of what I was making at Cox. What am I thinking? How the hell am I going to do this financially? I guess I have 2 or 3 choices — a part-time job, a home business (a […]
I’ve been out of work for almost seven months. I think I’m changing, inside, learning better how to deal with life and stress. Maybe. Running out of money again. Even after getting $2338 back from taxes. Owe all my big bills plus $1047 for property tax, $392 for homeowners insurance. All that’s on the table […]