May 31st, 2010 @ 5:49 pm

My mom’s friend from her church sent me this email: David, I need to do more research but the following is pretty clear: Your mom can’t have a debit card – she needs to operate on a cash basis, The only draft than can continue is the one to NelNet, Your mom is probably a […]

New Cycle
March 6th, 2010 @ 12:00 pm

March 6, 2010 Imagine we’re in a completely new cycle. I have a beautiful dog and a silly black cat. I’ve reconnected with Cricket and Gary, and I hope to see them soon. again. Kathleen A. Gagne This is the last entry mom wrote in her “Letters to Mom” journal. It’s the only entry without […]

Visit with Andrew Garver
January 26th, 2010 @ 7:55 am

I still have access to mom’s old Yahoo! email account. In her “drafts” folder I found an email written to me but never sent:   From: Gagne, Kathleen <> To: Gagne, David Subject: Visit with Andrew Garver Sent: January 26, 2010 10:55 AM Dear David, I need you to put some money on one of […]

Mocha’s Meals
November 25th, 2008 @ 4:18 pm

This is from a file named Mocha 2.doc, dated November 25, 2008, found on mom’s old computer hard drive. I’m not sure if it was a letter she wrote to a vet, or notes she made for someone who was going to watch Mocha for a few days, or something else altogether.   Mocha’s Meals: […]

Angry with Him
November 13th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

On pets and jobs

Maybe I’ll Be Gorgeous
November 11th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

On Mocha, finances, and her unending battle with her own body

Mr. P.B.
September 17th, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

Sept. 17, 2008 Mom, Mr. P.B. died Sunday morning. I guess most people wouldn’t understand, but it really hurts to lose him. One of the singers on America’s got talent sang “In the arms of the angels.” He was so tiny and so sick. He died here on my couch with me giving him as […]

January 22nd, 2008 @ 12:00 pm

1/22/08 Hi, Mom, I’ve been eating tons of chocolate. I started eating right today, and I already feel better. Look, if you’re up there, please keep an eye on David & Jenny. I’m so far away. I miss them and you all the time. I want to hear your voice. I want to ask you […]

December 28th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

12/28/07 Hi, Mom, Got through Christmas, sort-of! Jen came and went. She stayed a week. We went to a movie, and I guess we had quality time together. But she always leaves. It hurts so much! I hardly ever see my kids, and I’m almost always alone. Dic & Ann believe I’m going to hell […]

November 8th, 2007 @ 12:00 pm

Dear Mom, Sometimes you drove me crazy. I felt as if I was an alien in the family. I was always dreaming. I still dream. I still hope. I was thinking about some of the things you and Daddy did that really hurt me. You gave away my dog, my Blackie, and you let me […]