I found dozens of journals after mom died. So, so many of them only contain a handful of entries, but some of them cover entire years of her life.
These blog posts are entries from them.
Jen is home and David is coming the 22nd — for a whole week. I’m having a colonoscopy Tuesday. Ugh. I guess I think all will be well, but, just in case — David & Jen, I loved you before you were born. You are the light and hope of my life — and you […]
It’s been a long time, but I wanted to write down what Susan said today. She said: “Challenge your irrational thoughts!” What a concept! David and [redacted] are coming for Christmas from the 22nd to the 30th! And I’m off all those days! Wow! Now, if we could only come up with some money! With […]
Yesterday was my 54th birthday. Jen is here — God, how wonderful she is! David called a couple of times. (He was in an accident Friday — (while we were talking on the phone.) He’s okay, but he’s really stressed about money. He told me how broke he is for the first time. Kathleen A. […]
It has been a long time since I’ve even thought about writing … I’ve gained back the 23 pounds I lost before Jen & I went to Rhode Island. I’m also stressed, having problems breathing, and tired all the time. I’ve been feeling as if there’s nothing I can do about it — ever. But […]
I feel pretty sad today. Jen breezed in and out like a wraith and I can’t believe how much I already miss her. I won’t see her again for almost two months. God, I’m so alone! I never seem to lose weight — I can’t find enough money — and I’m so alone. But I […]
Jen slept with me last night. She came home late and I was zonked. [Redacted] slept in Jen’s bed and Jen in mine. When we woke up this morning, we were pretty silly. Shia Khan was on the bed. Then we got up and had breakfast & Jen and [redacted] left to wander around time. […]
Jen and [redacted] got here about ½ hour ago. I guess I’ll get to spend about five hours with Jen and then I won’t see her until the end of September. That’s about 6 weeks. But then, I think she’s staying a week. I want to write about Pudge, a stray I had picked up. […]
I was watching Home Shopping Network (or one like it) and feeling pretty down. Tony Robbins came on. It was funny. He was selling his program, and I wanted to call and give him a hard time for selling it instead of giving it away. And then I realized that I had it, the whole […]
So, back to my life as it is. This is such a remarkable time with Jen, but she’s leaving Wednesday, going to Chicago for at least until the end of October. And going on the Trail again in a couple of weeks. How can I be so proud of her and so scared for her […]
It seems as if the trip went by in the blink of an eye. Fran felt really sick / tired on Saturday. She and I met for breakfast at the Early Bird Cafe/Diner next to St. Patrick’s. I had blueberry pancakes, full of RI blueberries, tart and sweet. Fran and I had a great talk, […]