I found dozens of journals after mom died. So, so many of them only contain a handful of entries, but some of them cover entire years of her life.
These blog posts are entries from them.
Took Mom back to Dic’s today. House feels all empty again. Jen and I watched the Superbowl there. Had a headache all day — hope it’s allergies and not bp, but my ankle is all swollen. Anyway, the Patriots beat the Rams 20-17, yea!!! What a cool game. Need to talk to Susan about EMDR […]
It’s Monday again, and again there is no movement on any front in the job arena. I feel like crying – have felt that way practically since I woke up. I don’t really know where else to turn. I’m getting ready to try a couple of temp agencies after I drive down to workforce. I […]
Dic and Ann’s fifth anniversary. Auntie Dora died yesterday — she introduced Mom and Dad, asking them to be my cousin Richard’s god-parents. If it wasn’t for her, Jen and David and I wouldn’t be here. David called to tell me he got a line in Jesus Christ Superstar. Incredible! How things go around — […]
Yesterday I went to St. Augustine with Wendy, Beth, and Sue. We walked on the beach for about an hour, looked at 2 condos so Sue could rent one, went to a couple of thrift shops and had a very late lunch at Tavern on the Bay overlooking the water near Ft. Matanzas. None of […]
Jen keeps telling me to write — my book. I believe this is the absolute, very first time anyone has ever encouraged me like that unless Jen herself did it in high school. She is so unbelievable! Wonderful! She’s all the things I ever wanted to be. She’s her own woman, too. Strong and tender, […]
Had a really awful day today, mostly because I did virtually nothing but play video games and cook. Finally, late, I started cleaning my bathroom. It’s gorgeous, too clean to use. Anyway, after 7:00, I decided to go to my writers’ meeting. I got there really late, but it was great. People were glad to […]
It’s been a long time again. Mom is here. The money situation gets worse by the hour and neither job called today, and I saw nothing in the paper. Little success with ebay. Planning huge yard sale Saturday with Jen. Spurrier resigned Friday. I’m not sure why I wrote that just now. The kids were […]
“Look to this day, for yesterday is but a dream, and tomorrow is only a vision. But today – well lived – makes yesterday a dream of happiness and tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well, therefore, to today.” Heard it on a soap opera of all things. Sure makes a lot of sense. I […]
It seems like forever since I’ve written. Still no job, very little money, getting behind on bills. It’s pretty depressing because I was just at the point where my credit was getting restored. I’ve had some problems with my blood pressure. I’ve been walking 4 or 5 times a week with the silly pups. I […]
Dic and I are talking. We’ve been sharing some stuff from the past. Maybe it’s because it finally dawned on me that he grew up in the same environment I did, with his own set of Italian Catholic male issues, insecurities, and stresses in addition to our shared experience of feeling as if we were […]