I found dozens of journals after mom died. So, so many of them only contain a handful of entries, but some of them cover entire years of her life.
These blog posts are entries from them.
After Jen called to wake me up, I was sitting in bed watching MTM, and David called and asked me if I was watching TV. He sounded funny, so I immediately thought of earthquake (there had been one in L.A. the other day). But when I turned to the news, I saw a jetliner crashing […]
It’s been a rough week — lots of fears, lots of immobility, lots of eating and feeling lonely. Sometimes I feel as if I’m learning all kinds of things and changing — working to get better while accepting myself more. Other times I feel stuck, as if I physically can’t move forward or ahead, and […]
Seems like it’s been a long, sort of lonely day. I ate junk all day, too, and spent too much money, and my head felt funny. Jen called, so that was a bright spot. I guess they got tickets to the game. The Gators won and looked great and will probably stay at #1. I […]
Got my sinuses x-rayed. Talking to Dic helps, and I’m thinking it’s allergies, but worried as usual. Remembered what Mike said and used the affirmation. Walking into Wal-Mart, told myself I was going to figure out what I’m “supposed” to do. It is amazing, but, like realizing my self-esteem has or should have no link […]
I finally spoke to Moke Booz, the coach Susan referred me to. He sounds really nice and very dedicated, and he was as supportive of my thinking about the same career as Susan thought he would be. We spoke for over an hour. He suggested I take a couple of days to try to discern […]
I feel a little better today. I know I need to really focus on my finances and job situation this week. I plan to call about the job counseling position Susan recommended. I also really need to go over the LHH job search material I have. I don’t know whether to call Vonnie about what […]
I don’t plan to write every day, but for now I might. I’ve felt pretty sick all day and, of course, I’ve been worried about worst-case scenarios exacerbated by the recent headlines. Anyway, Jen and I went to Daytona and it was the usual stuff except that we got to take care of Nic for […]
I bought this today because I think this is a very important time in my life. I hope it will be the beginning of the best years … It’s funny that I should be experiencing so many new things, that so many things are changing inside me. I have no job; I’ve gained weight; I’m […]
In which mom writes about my sister
In which Jenny moves back to Gainesville